Exhaustion Part two

I got up at 543am and had breakfast and made my eggs.

I added a 8 oz glass of diet cranberry juice to add some variety.  Plus the tap water around here has been tasting sort of stale.

I then found out by going though my mail that my recent hospital admittance is being denied by my insurance company is trying to deny coverage. I spend the next several hours trying to figure out if there was anything I can do about it. I really don’t want to be bankrupted. We are trying to start a business and find  a way to stay in Nutley NJ. This knowing that I am facing a paycheck which I only had 16 hours at work. My friend in the Insurance department at work said that she thinks that it will work out since the doctors are the ones that made a mistake on the diagnosis when they billed… and everyone is in network… but still it totally freaks me out. I spend half my work life raising thousands of dollars for women who can’t afford reproductive healthcare… and just once I wish that there was someone I could call who would raise thousands of dollars for me so I don’t go under!  Anyway – just feeling sorry or myself…


I made lettuce wraps with Turkey and swiss. I also had a banana and a cottage cheese.


I made it to 5 pm and caved into what we call the “cookies of despair” at the office.


For dinner we had a pork chop and mashed potatoes and carrots. It was delicious  and comforting.


Then I had a cup of berries and yogurt. I am recycling last times picture so there are bananas in the pictures but I did not have one for dessert tonight.



Yesterday.. exhaustion

The same 3 scrambled eggs for breakfast… but good…

Yesterday was a day I had big plans… work, then clean house, then edit, then clip coupons for the coupon file…. and I had a drink with a friend after work, came home, talked to our friend / accountant to schedule an appointment. Then promptly went to sleep. But Diet wise it was not bad. I had the usual eggs for breakfast.

Lettuce wraps, Turkey and Swiss with Durkee’s dressing. I also had a 1/4 cup almonds, a greek yogurt and a banana.


Lunch was 4 oz turkey, 2 oz swiss cheese, 2 T durkee’s dressing, 1/4 almonds, 1 greek yogurt and a banana.

I had a Cosmo with Karlin at Beer Authority on the way home. She vented about wedding prep and we talked more about her photography. I wish she was not so stressed – but I think everyone I know that has gotten married has had a crazy person right before ( I know I was) so I am sure she will be OK.

When we got home Matt and I were both too tired to cook. We ate sandwiches (which I forgot to take a photo of) and then talked to Rich B about an accounting appointment… then went to bed.

Not too bad… hungry but OK

If only I knew a better easy high protein low carb breakfast… but here we are…


So I made it out of bed at 6:30 am – later then I had planned – but in the spirit of high protein / low carb week I managed to make my eggs and start the day.

I got to work on time where I was greeted by the medical staff who were all really happy to see me since I have been out of work for about two weeks. One being sick and the next being on a planned vacation to the Cape. Of course it was Tuesday at the crazy women’s health center so tensions were high. Lucky for me they had my new desk and computer all set up in the admin part of the office so I was away from most of the chaos.

Lunch was at 130 pm. I missed my snack because we were just too busy for eating even in the back office.

I spent my break at my desk so I would not have to deal with all the doctors asking if I was OK.


4 oz Turkey cold cuts

2 Oz Swiss Cheese

Garden Salad  1 cup with 1 tablespoon vinaigrette

1/2 cup almonds

1 fat free vanilla greek yogurt

The afternoon I spent fundraising for a patient coming in tomorrow with no money. She actually has insurance but because she works part-time her Medicaid plan is Family Health Plus instead of regular Medicaid benefits and she can’t get the services she needs because they are not covered. spent the whole afternoon calling all over the country and even had some funds call me cell tonight because I was so worried about her. She was crying hysterically afraid that she would not be able to get help anywhere. I was able to raise $750 which hopefully will be enough. We just have to hope tomorrows testing goes ok.

I got home and did a little bit of cleaning – mainly dishes and putting some things away. Then I sat down to work on film stuff for about 1 1/2 hours. By than Matt had the chicken grilled and so we ate dinner.

Delicious!! Thanks Matt!


1 Chicken Breast

1 1/2 cups Garden Salad

2 Tablespoons Vinaigrette

Then I put together Matt’s lunch and mine. Then I sat down for tonight’s TV and then I have to go to bed.  I made a great desert with

1 cup strawberries

1 banana

and 1 greek vanilla yogurt

I am hoping that this makes up a bit for the fact that I did not eat any of the fruit today.




Back to Life… Back to Reality

Monday August 27th 2012

So I am back from a great vacation on Cape Cod. We spent the week hanging out with Gail and Hank – my wonderful in-laws and resting on the beach. After a long week of being sick the week before it was a much needed rest…. but not it is back to the office, back to the film, back to the house cleaning…. and back to the low carb diet until I can make up for the vacation and get the scale moving in the right direction again. I am trying to decide if I weigh myself today or just wait until after I am good for he week and then weigh myself. I think that I will…. but just approach it as a guide to where I want to be next week. No beating myself up… no judgements. I needed this week of stress free relaxation to get over the week before. Now I restart.

430 am      3 eggs scrambled with 1 T ketchup.

Eggs at Dawn…

I did pack my lunch last night – as soon as we got back from The Cape. This was made easier by the wonderful new bento boxes given to Matt and I by Gail. They are totally cool.

Awesome Bento Boxes!

For a 930 / 10 am snack I have a banana and Almonds

I spread the almonds out over the whole day…

For Lunch I packed the following:

1 cup Boston Lettuce

4 oz turkey deli meat

2 oz swiss cheese

2 T Durkee’s sandwich spread.

Yummy Lettuce Wraps!

I have a lot of chores to do around the house and a lot of editing to do this week. I need to really seriously clean the place from top to bottom so I am starting in the kitchen today. I am devoting 2 hours to that when I got home…. but I was super tires to I washed the dishes and put some things away and watched “White Coller”

So many reasons to love this show!

Then I have to start logging the footage from our shoot at Candle Light Concerts for Epilepsy Awareness so that we can begin editing that for Eric’s website and our web site too eventually. It was a really great shoot and I loved it so it should be fun to log.

Dinner will be salad of lettuce, tomatoes, cucumber, pepper with home made italian dressing.

Dessert will be 1 cup strawberries and a vanilla greek yogurt. Yum! not as good as ice cream – but creaming and cold so what more can I ask this week?

Escape to Cape Cod! The First Half…

Ok, so I have been off line for a week because I have been in and out of the hospital. It is long and complicated… I was diagnosed with Idiopathic Intercrainial hypertension —- needed a lumbar puncture which landed me in the hospital for two days… And the immediately got a UTI / kidney infection which sent us back to the ER two days later.

Luckily we are safely in cape cod on vacation where we can rest and relax. My eating has not been great but at least I have been trying to eat only half of things at a time.

930 am 2 servings wheat thins

130 pm strawberry poppy seed salad with chicken
Diet Coke

Much better then I expected for 400 cal

630 pm 6 oz meat loaf
1/2 cup lima beans
1 sweet potatoes

1030am Western omelet
Cinnamon Raisin Toast
1/2 cup home fries


230 pm Ham and cheese Wrap
1/2 Fruit salad
Diet Snapple

530 pm 1 grilled calamari ( I gave Matt the other two)
Beet Salad
Lobster Saffron Risotto cake
1 Cocktail (Summer in a Glass)

11pm Flourless Chocolate Cake

1030am English Muffin
1/2 fruit salad
Coffee with Milk and sugar

1230 pm 1 scoop ice cream

230 pm 1/3 of a french fries
Diet Coke

630 pm 8 oz steak
Grilled Asparagus
mashed potato
10 pm 1/2 a pastry

1030am 1 english muffin
1130pm 1/2 a serving clam strips
1 lobster roll
diet coke

230 pm 1 ice cream cone

630 pm 1/4 of a stuffed portabella
1/4 of a calamari appetizer
small Caesar Salad
1/2 Bison Ragu over Linguini
1/2 a chocolate mousse

930 am bowl of Kashi Protein Crunch
1/2 cup milk

12pm 1 serving Wheat thins
Diet Coke
Ice Cream sandwich

4pm toasted english muffin

Thursday 8/9/2012

I am sorry I am not writing much… just very tired… but I promised to have my photo food journal up.

The same 3 scrambled eggs for breakfast… but good…


I had a 20 oz Diet Coke instead of iced Coffee this morning on the bus… but was too tired to take a picture.

I did not have time for a morning snack… I did drink a 20 bottle of water though which I know I needed.

Lunch at 130 pm was chicken and broccoli with 1/2 cup of white rice this time… I was not steamed because that cost more and I am a little cash poor right now…

I know that it has too much oil because of the pretty glossy look… but it was yummy!


Dinner at 9 20 pm with Matt… and DVR of John Stewart

6 oz salmon and 1/2 cup of saffron rice… thanks Matt for dinner…





Wednesday 8/8/2012

Wednesday was a long day for me.

I had Iced coffee on the way to work…

Skim Milk and Equal — mmmmm…..

Not Enough Coffee in the World….

Morning Snack – 11 am

The Nectarines from the Farmers Market are awesome.

Lunch at 2 pm


6 oz steak and some left over roast asparagus

A drink before Dinner ….

Dinner at Beer Authority with an old friend –

Grilled Shrimp Salad ( it has beets, greens, shrimp and I swear some pickled onion… yumm!)